We are raised to be strong, to assertively go after the things we want. Then, just when we begin making decisions for ourselves, the issue of faith becomes a factor. How do we separate going after what we want, from “letting go and letting God?” Can choice, control, and trying to hear what God wants for us exist side by side?
I heard a sermon recently where the minister had taken time off to step back and look at where she was at in her ministry. She thought she wanted one thing. Turned out, she – and a new congregation – needed something else. She mentioned the song “The Summons” in her sermon. The first line of that song is this: “Will you come and follow me if I but call your name? Will you go where you don’t know and never be the same?”
So how do we know when an opportunity is OUR idea or GOD’S idea? How do we LOSE the control that we have worked so hard to achieve as we have worked toward our goals? How can we know what GOD wants for us? How do we LEARN to TRUST? How do we quiet ourselves enough to HEAR if a different direction is the RIGHT one for us?
I’m trying to listen…to really hear…to recognize that gentle pull that keeps leading me in a particular direction. It’s hard. I like to know where I am going. I like road maps and clear directions. I’m trying to trust, and to let myself be led. I guess no one ever said it would be easy.